Hi readers!
I know this is another post focusing on the coronavirus and it feels like that’s all anyone talks about at the moment, but I feel like, since it’s so prevalent in everyone’s lives right now, it’s better to talk about it than to pretend it’s not happening because everyone’s in the same boat and this will help people feel less alone.
My first week of isolation has gone by pretty fast but I know it will get harder as the weeks go by. On Monday night, Boris Johnson said that all non-essential shops and businesses will be closed down and that people were only allowed to go out once every day to exercise and that these rules would be revisited in 3 weeks. I felt like it was that speech when it really hit me how serious everything was… Don’t get me wrong, I have been taking it seriously for the entire time and I went into self-isolation the second I discovered I needed to and I avoid contact with other people… but I think it was the fact that he’s not going to revisit the rules for 3 weeks that I realised this was really serious and could go on for a long time… I’m sad by how little I appreciated the simple things in life only a month ago, like being able to go to the shops whenever I wanted, as many times as I wanted and actually being able to buy the food I wanted without any stress. I miss sitting on a train… which is ironic because I’d been complaining about how much I hate travelling and how I feel like I spend so much time just sat on trains… Now, I wish nothing more than to get on one and travel somewhere, anywhere.
I know eventually this will pass and that’s what I’m holding onto right now in the mists of all the tragedy… And I know the tragedies can never be underdone and that breaks my heart, but to believe this will end is what I’m trying to think about. I go out for a walk in the fields by my house and I feel somewhat fearful of others and they probably feel the same about me and I hate that it has come to this, to be scared of other people in this way. I’m a massive dog lover but I’ve never had one so I love it when dogs want my attention when I’m out, but now I have to stand there not touching them because it’s not known how well coronavirus can travel through dog fur and I don’t want to catch it or if I have it with no symptoms, I don’t want to pass it on.
It feels like my life is the same but so different at the same time… I can no longer just pop out to the local shop when I’m feeling a bit hungry and looking for something to snack on or get on a train to my local town to roam the shops just to pass the time, I can no longer travel to see my boyfriend… but at the same time, it feels like any other school holiday; I’m at home with my family, sleeping in, having nice meals, being productive but also doing things for fun and having a break and it’s very disorientating.
This week has been a lot easier than I was expecting and I’m sure it will get harder in the coming weeks when it starts to feel more like I’m trapped and less like I’m on a school break, so I’m just going to try and keep busy. I’m going to make myself a schedule to make sure I’m still doing work and exercising but also making time for self-care because that’s super important right now. My goal is to take this time to really work on all the things I haven’t been able to purely because I’ve been too busy like extra reading for university which I’ve wanted to do for ages and working on the assessments I do have to make sure they’re the best they can possibly be but also resting, because I want to go back to university for 2nd year in September ready to work harder than ever, because this is the year it starts to count. Your first year grade doesn’t count towards your degree but second year does, so that’s when I really have to work hard – which I’m already doing, but I need to work even harder.
I think, for me, the best thing that will come out of this will be that it rejigs my mindset and makes me start being more grateful and appreciative of what I have and never taking anything for granted, because I’ve now learnt that everything can be taken away so quickly. I think this will make me start enjoying all the simpler things in life again that can oftentimes feel quite tedious, but now I’ll be grateful I get to do them.
I really hope everyone is coping okay and that everyone’s families are healthy.
Let me know in the comments how you’re finding the Government’s new restrictions and what your favourite thing to do to pass the time is!
Stay safe everyone ❤
Inspired Teen 🙂
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